auburn-dreams

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

A few really bad things have happened lately, I lost my best friend, my beautiful young stallion to a snake bite, and there was nothing I could do about it. Its been a week now and its not getting any easier, even though Ive lived on a farm my whole life and being a vet nurse, you get use to these things (mostly)
I miss him so much and I miss all the opportunities and moments we didn't have and wont get.
And at the same time, my pet rat Artie escaped his home and has gone missing, I don't expect he will return.

Then in all this sadness, my human best friend got herself a new kidney, shes been sick for a few years now and thanks to a gorgeous donor, she has a new life.
She will be home at the end of the week, I think we will get some Chinese to celebrate.

I wonder if life will always be like this, even though there's so much going on, I still got up in the morning, went to work, came home and walked my dogs then spent the next few hours stalking the internet or playing xbox.
Is it like this for you too?

So Im taking a sharpie to the list of things I do now, Im just going to focus on a few.
* Fixing my motobikes (CX500 custom + SL230 and maybe if I can afford a new CBF250)
* Doing my Dollie thing
* Kicking cadet butt
* Organizing my wedding .... O_o

Oh I got engaged before all this shit happened, its kinda strange but in a good way, and boy is there a lot to get ready for.

With all my love
xoxox
Del

Dizzyatdizumnl
who is alway there for me and gave me premium membership again!
Thankyou so much xoxox

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Sometimes I find myself wondering what Im doing with my self and if Im really living to be the person I want to be.
I have never done anything I didnt want to, everything I do, every moment, every second is exactly what I want.
And then I get sad, because I cant be all the people I want to be, I cant do everything I want to do... all at once!
So sadly, soemthings get pushed to the side, like this wonderful place and everything I have to share.
But I never really forget, you are always here, always willing to welcome he home.
I love you for that.
xoxox

Dizzyatdizumnl
who is alway there for me and gave me premium membership again!
Thankyou so much xoxox

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Where does the time fly to?
I have so much to share but never seem to have the time to show
as always I make the promise to find time, and as always I thank you special people who watch me and fav my work, you guys keep my imagination alive.

Short and Sweet my dearests
<3

Dizzyatdizumnl
who is alway there for me and gave me premium membership again!
Thankyou so much xoxox